Quarry Bank Mill/Styal.

Hubby's been off a week and two days and we've waited patiently for decent weather, it wasn't going to happen was it, so today we ventured out in the rain cos we're British and 'ard'. Hubby's suggestion of a cotton mill went down as easy as swallowing a piece of thorny hedge, its got a massive water wheel he said, oh I said, its got working machinery he enthused, oh I said, its got a secret garden and a resaurant, he had me with that one.

Because it takes an awfully long time for me to put pics on here and caption them I'm going to tell you about them now and you'll have to remember whats what. The the mill from the outside, me in a cave, view, secret garden, machines and matching hat and bag (for clare).

I have to say I was totally absorbed in this place, I read every bit of info and did all the hands on displays, there were a few of these things dotted about called The Gov'nor so I asked John what they were, he gave me a knowing look because I'm not the easiest person in the world to explain technical stuff to. He said 'those two balls swing round, get wider and push a rod up' Oh I said thats impressive isnt it. I feel my brain is expanding with these trips.

Love to all.

Dozy Berk!

Whilst trying to delete one friends blog link I inadvertently deleted them all, I'd love to blame it all on blogger but it would be an out and out lie it was moi.

I'll add them all again soon, just so you know I wasn't becoming antisocial in my old age.

:D

More excitement in my world.

Ooooowwww!!! I'm very excited again.

I've just rung the cf nurse to arrange to take Chris's drawing up and she's asked me if I'd be prepared do a write up and have a photo taken presenting the pic to the unit and it'll be going in their magazine..........woooohoooo!! What a wonderful tribute that will be to our Chris.

So its back to scribbling some notes down again, great practice for studentness this is. Note to myself though, do not write a book they only need a write up.

I don’t know where to begin about Sunday, it was an amazing day, one I’ll never ever forget. I was surprised to find I wasn’t quite as nervous about giving my testimony in public as I thought I’d be when I first open my eyes and even managed a couple of pieces of toast. However, as the hours ticked by (yes hours because I was up at dawn) I began to feel the old knee’s getting a bit wobbly.

The logistics of the day kept my mind occupied because we had to take a different route to the one we normally take to church in order to pick my mum up on the way. I also had my lovely friend Eve travelling with me and John, our Mike and Sophie following us and my sister Julie and niece Natalie following at the back. Only I knew the way so we had to make sure we didn’t lose them.

I can’t describe how special it was for me to have them all coming to my Baptism, especially our Mike who is still very angry about Chris leaving us, I know it took a lot for him and I really did appreciate it.

When the time for the talk came Col called me and D (the other person who was being Baptised) to the front and introduced us, then handed the microphone to D who spoke for a while and then became emotional. I put my hand on his shoulder and felt a huge lump in my throat. Oh heck I thought I haven’t even started mine and I’m off on one already. Then it was my turn, my voice was shaky for a while and I did falter once or twice but I did it, I got the whole thing out and I was so chuffed because I wanted more than anything to share my story.

Then it was off to get changed into pool gear for the most important bit of the day, my life long friend Wendy was also coming into the water with me as she was the person who was most significant in my giving my life to God. I have no words to describe how it felt when I came up from the water, I just threw my arms in the air and jumped up and down ecstatically, this was the icing on the cake, the thing I have looked forward to for ages and I felt so full of pure joy.

I'll add my testimony to my other blog later for anyone who would like to read it.

Love to all.

Big day for me tomorrow

Tomorrow is a very important day for me, I'm going to be Baptised in my new church and its something I've been looking forward to for a while now. At our church we have the option to share our story or not and I've chosen to talk about mine because I think its a positive (for me) that came about after something which was as negative as it gets, losing my son. I'm nervous about speaking in public, just in case you missed the 100 or so times I've said that I thought I'd throw it in again, but I so want to do it and I will.

I'm not going into the details of my testimony on here but will post it on my quiet time blog in a few days time if anyone would like to read it.

If you pray say a wee one for me for courage and strength because it will be a bit emotinal methinks.

Arghhh!!

Tips for talking in public needed urgently, c'mon all you who have done it.....help me ;-)

Line dancing tonight, that'll take my mind off it.

Love to all.

First taste of line dancing tonight and I'm loving it, we (note I'm already one of them) are called The Elton Eagles and I will have a black t-shirt with the name printed in gold. The men wear these black boots with long pointy toes and there's loads of bits and pieces like hats, shiney metal edgings on shirt collars, badges and of course country music. I'm well excited and can see myself in years to come doing the forward box, the shuffle, the heel toe double and the side step backwards with a quarter turn......in my dreams! Its been great fun tonight and I loved it, its good to tryitandsee.

We did the castle, no dungeons, stone walls, pigeons, stone walls, steps, more stone walls etc..... I did however conquer one of my all time phobia's as I bravely climbed very narrow dark staircases whilst grabbing a rope and repeating 'I can't do closed in' and 'arghh! I don't like being this high up' in fact thats two isnt it. Major getting over phobia's day for me, I just kept thinking c'mon girl you're only here once get over it and it worked........Yippeeee!

I have no idea why I was smiling at this bit of wall, John talks to trees, I smile at walls thats why we get on so well.

Mike's answer to my whinning that I couldn't do heights 'just do it mother' so I did......

Wake up its a beautiful morning.....

We planned to do a castle today, the men wanted one with dungeons and not too far away, after googling last night I decided on Conwy, no idea if it has dungeons but there's a beach and many food places... sorted. Naturally its lashing down just now because its the weekend but I have a sneaky feeling the sun might put in an appearance later so I'm voting to go anyway.

Have a good Saturday everyone.

Garden stuff

I made a start on the secret garden at the weekend, well on the entrance to it anyway.

Before

After

The sun creates havoc in our pond, its as green and gooey as anything. We've tried everything apart from chemicals, then I remembered something my second aunty once told me, get some straw (I had loads of that due to 6ft grass being cut and dumped here and there), roll it into a parcel and put it in tights. Lower into the pond and within a couple of weeks it will be clear.

A wasps nest right above where I was working all day, John says they're made out of chewed up wood so we're looking for the hole in the cabin now. Cute wee thing isnt it.

This post has taken nearly a week to get to publishment because of a very bad pc, power cuts (due to electrical storms) and I'm back at work so life is busy busy busy!!

Love to all.

Meeting oneself coming back from holiday before you go.

At work today I was astounded!

I’m covering the next two weeks for someone who is about to fly off to a sun drenched beach somewhere much nicer than Chester. I was excited for the person and arrived singing something about a Summer holiday…..Oooow I said, not long now and you’ll be off, are you in holiday mode then.

The reply was astounding!

Hmmpf!! all I keep thinking is this time next week I’ll be entering my second week and then home.

‘YOU HAVENT EVEN GONE YET FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!’

I was astounded!

I’ve been trying to think of something a bit more negative to beat this one, its going to be hard but I’m determined to come up with a better one by tommorra.

Night All.
Astounded – Chester.

Its all go here.

Ive had a busy old weekend, we went to a National Trust thingymajig on Saturday.

Ducks

John talking to a tree

I want this in my garden.

Me in a den

This looked like a duck on a ledge from a distance, honest.

Deer

The effective way to teach Health & Safety (the white sign says 'If you come near me I'll kill you) charmin.

Hat.

Saturday night I went to a wedding reception at our local community centre which gave me terrible problems at church the next morning. I normally go off into a dreamlike state when we sing, I close my eyes and kind of sway and its the most wonderful feeling ever. This week though due to the thundering disco noise the night before I had no balance so had to grip the back of the chair in front of me and keep my eyes wide open just to stay upright, anyone with bad tinitus will understand that one. Church was brilliant again this week, for anyone interested in why I thought so I'll be putting it on my other blog later.

studentness

Its official, I'm now a student it says so in the letter that postie brought this morning. I have to start reading psychology, sociology, biology and other ologies......in preparation for September. I'm excited, but my blog may become a bit too intellegent for my readers as my brain starts to expand - yeah right!

Have a good Saturday everyone, we are going National Trusting today despite the fact that its lashing down here.

Nosey parkers.

What about this Google thing ‘Street view’

When I first read it I wasn’t sure I liked the idea, I thought it was a bit cheeky actually and the pictures of the Google car’s with the 3D camera’s going up and down the roads taking pictures of our houses and cars unnerved me a bit. Now I’m going to have to make sure I take my curlers out and get out of my pj’s if I want to add something to my brown bin, just in case its that day that they are in our road. I’ll have to wash the care an all because I parked under a tree on Thursday and every pigeon in Birkenhead had a poo on it.

Blimey, what’s the world coming to.

Edit
My windows are not getting washed. I advise everyone else not to clean theirs.

Housey House.

It’s been a well exciting week so far this week, so good that I can barely restrain myself from bubbling over with hysteria and delight in fact.

As with most of the country we’ve had a monsoon descend on Chester so no threshing about in the soil or smelling the lovely cut grass, I don’t mind though because I’ve been doing the domestic scene with a smile (cos we're still in Love month) I just couldn't wait to get the marigolds and apron on, yeah right! For three day’s now I’ve dusted, hovered, mopped, ironed, cooked, sorted out mounds of paper and been to the tip so many times that Erick (the man who sits in the kennel telling you which skip to use) and I are on first name terms. ENOUGH!!! That’s my contribution for the rest of this year, I hate loath and despise housey stuff and I’m doing no more.

I finally dragged myself back to the gym today, (mainly to avoid finding another job to do in the house) and was dead chuffed to find I could still swim a mile, which incidently is 60 lengths, hardly surprising with all the legging round housewifeing. I'm going to try to push it to 70 lengths over the next couple of weeks and if I do it I'll award myself the most expensive dish in the restaurant and a cake, yummy I look forward to that providing I'm not being stretchered out.

Tomorrow is mum day, she gets to choose what we do on a Thursday so this week I’m off to The Bingo........hmmmm!!

‘I’m so excited an I just can’t hide it’

Line dancing might be on the cards because I was very impressed with Margaret's moves at the barbecue, its bound to be easier than belly dancing and I already have some cowee gear.yeeeeeehah.

A perfect day.

Did I ever mention that I love my new church, well I do. All this week there’s been a marq, marc, erm……big tent in a park where about eight churches have got together and each night there has been a joint service. Unfortunately I could only make it on one of the night’s, that was Tuesday and the speakers for the night were Paul Jones and his wife. Now I knew I knew the name and I was also pretty sure he was a singer from way back but like many others couldn’t quite place the group he was in. According to Paul on his travels nobody else could remember either so he gave us a quick rendition of ‘There she was just a walking down the street’ and we all bellowed ‘Doo ah diddy diddy um diddy do’ oh yeah! It was Manfred Man, silly.

Col, our pastor was to introduce Paul and his wife and he came to chat with us before things got underway. I have a bit of something up my sleeve he said and pulled out a mouth organ, by the look on Liz’s face (Col’s wife) she didn’t think it was a brill idea, but he said I might or might not do it and I think she hoped he wouldn’t. Naturally he did and to be fair he was pretty impressive. I have to say at this point that Col is a great inspiration to me, apparently he used to be a very quiet member of the church who never put himself forward. I’m guessing he was shy and not at all an extrovert. But week after week he shows no sign at all of the person he used to be as he sings, speaks, comforts, cries and is never ever afraid to show emotion, that has a very liberating effect on me and no doubt many others because to be able to just be yourself and know for certain that nobody will think you are weird is something so special and I love it.

This morning was a chance for all the churches to set up a bit of an exhibition around the tent, we had a band, some solo singers and much mingling went on. The atmosphere was magic because although all the churches there today do it slightly different our aim was to unite and we did big time.

Tomorrow morning starts at 10am and I’ll be there……..I’ll be theeeere

Love - Part whatever.

Well the starting the day with a cheery note and feeling the Love has been dead easy recently, the get together was fab and I thoroughly enjoyed it. What comes better than getting many people (family & friends) together in the great outdoors with music and food, its priceless. I did stop for a moment and nearly went very sad when I thought about Chris not being there, but then I looked around and realised once again that most of the beauty in our garden was put there by him and his mates. He’ll always be right there with us when we’re in the garden and in my head I said thank you babe for giving us this little haven. Then I was happy again.

Although playing hostess is a wee bit stressful I have to admit I love it, I’m into doing the food and I love walsing round chatting so we’re planning another one around the beginning of August, just got to get a theme organised. On the Sunday we had a couple of mini get togethers to finish off the nibbles and of course I still had to be taught how to play poker. Well……..I can get the bit about making a hand with the cards that are on the table, but as for the betting bit, it defeats me, I just don’t get it. Raise, call and whatever else seems to cost you and the chips were going in at a frightening speed, I didn’t understand when I had to match a bet and when I didn’t and it confused me no end when the chips I’d already put it were counted as some of my stake thing. Oh nooooo!! Poker’s not for me, I’ll stick to what I know.

I’m off out with my mum today armed with the mobility bike, now that’ll be a test for the cheery note and share the love won’t it, because in my experience as with wheelchairs, some people are convinced that if they just keep on walking they will be able to morph right through it. My mum’s an expert though, its no end of fun to watch faces as she ploughs on regardless.

I plucked one eyebrow last night because it was getting on my nerves, I did intend to do the other this morning but I’ve made a conscious decision to leave it as it looks like I’m winking in a slightly surprised way and will add to the humour of the day.

Have a good un.

LOVE to all.

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Oriental Delight.

Cheery note No. 3 didn’t come easy yesterday due to being poisoned by my K.P.F.U. (can’t yet bring myself to say the words) on Tuesday night. You know when you are so startving hungry you’d eat a wellie if it got too close, well that’s what I was like. I’d had a busy (but very enjoyable) day and no time to cook tea before the hairdresser arrived. Because she does us as a job lot its not quick and by the time she went I was ravenous, so sent for a Chinese, I can just about say that word without bringing back the horror of yesterday morning.

While I was eating the K.P.F.U. I thought to myself this isn’t very hot, warning number 1, after a few more mouthfuls I decided Nah!! and put it in the bin. The result was a poorly me yesterday morning, I never moved off the couch all day because when I did try to everything went into spasm. It wasn’t nice.

I did find a wee cheery note though, it was a lovely soft cozy blanket that I rolled myself in like a sausage.

The last attack of the spasm gremlins was 4am this morning, so I’ve had 4 hours free from toe curling, that’s my cheery note for today.

Day 2

Okay its day 2 of LOVE and starting the day on a cheery note, so I decided a bit of music might fit the bill. Now I don’t ever listen to loud noise of any kind early in the morning because I like to wake up quietly so I nipped onto iTunes to find a mellow song. What happened I don’t know but I downloaded ‘I’m walking on Sunshine’ and proceeded to dance round the living room in my pj’s

I’m walking on Sunshine…… Whooah
I’m walking on Sunshine…….Whooah
And don’t it feel good.

I’m off into the garden to plant my sweet peas round the wigwam John made last night, I might have a dance round it first because that song is stuck in my head for the day now.

Love

Church was fab today. For anyone interested in reading why I thought so its on my other blog.

Nothing startlingly interesting to blog about on this one but I'm sure something will happen soon an I'll blog it.

LOVE to all.

Howdy

Just a quickie while I have a connection. I've been busy getting the garden up to scratch for a barbecue on the 28th of June for our 33rd anniversary. We used to have barby's nearly every weekend, sometimes planned and sometimes totally off cuff, I remember one year in particular when we decided to take out the hawthorn hedge that separated us from next door and replace it with a fence. We phoned our good friend Jim for a bit of manual help and he said ' how many bottles of Malt do you reckon that'll take us' big jobs were measured that way here. Wondering what on earth we were going to do with all the now uprooted hedge the next morning we decided to breakfast on it, believe me you've not lived until you've had bacon and egg fried on a hawthorn hedge, its special.

Anyway back to the BIG barby, the dress code is cowboy/cowgirl, except for my good friend who's been cryin at me constantly because she wants to be a saloon floosy. We're having a polka table and some country music as well as good ole western food but have decided against hay bales as we have some paraffin torches, guests who like a fag and loads of decking, a bit much for John's mini extinguisher I think.

I did think about one of them horses that try to fling you off their back and someone suggested inflatable cactus, might be a bit dodgy googling bucking bronco and blow up plastic though I'd be here all night with the results that would produce.

Any other idea's?

I'm a bit excited.

Anyone who can get here is more than welcome.

Online momentarily.

We’ve had fun and games here with this pc, it won and I got so frustrated at not being able to stay online long enough to type three words I decided enough was definitely enough. When you get wound up over a machine its time to ask yourself ‘Do I need things in my life that cause me to want to smash it to bit’s’ and the answer of course is ‘Yes’ I had made the decision to ignore the fact I couldn’t get online and took myself into the garden, but John made it work last night so here I am. How long I’ll be here is anyone’s guess, its up to BT, Talk Talk, Norton, Netgear, AOL or whoever else insists on interfering and poking its nose into it. I hate that Norton thing it thinks its IT doesn’t it, every time you do anything it pops up and say’s ‘hang on hang on you’re not looking at that till I say you can’…..arghhhh! GO AWAY cease to exist you bossy, nosey, bigheaded piece of filth hiding behind my screen.

I feel better now and will blog about the thing that got past me later today if its still working. Off for that MRI scan now, I’ve just made myself a CD called God 1 which I’ll be playing until I go and on my journey there, hopefully that will fill me with much calmness and I will manage to stay in the hole without pressing the buzzer to come out 10 times as I did last time. Claustraphobia eh!!! who'd have it.

I don't know, I really don't.

Blimey I didn’t think anything got past me but apparently it does. I’m having a bit of a chuckle whilst I type this cos I’m a bit erm…..shall we say amused.

Uh Ooooh!!!!

I see trouble ahead.

We thought our fairly new neighbours had seen our cabin and fancied one for themselves, but on closer observation by me (while hiding behind a bush) I saw to my horror that this was no ordinary cabin thing. When questioned by solar light they confessed they intended to keep chickens.

Now don't get me wrong I absolutley love chickens, in fact I've always wanted to have some myself. I've even imagined me strolling down the garden calling them by name, Hilda, Betty and Roo (the handsome rooster) would all scuttle their webby little feet excitidly to greet me.

But then I saw the many bird feeders they'd hung in the apple tree......Oh nooooo. Birds are another of my favourite animals and at one time I was an avid twitcher. I could identify dozens of them and could even tell you if they were male or female.

I should be made up that we are to have such a wonderful array of animal life next door, but I'm not because we have 3 and a half cats here who all love to hunt even though they're the best fed moggies in the world. Them birds wont stand a chance.

The half cat is called Bob, I'm not sure whether he's a stray tame one or a slightly friendly feral one but he won't move in, he just eats on the step twice a day and rewards us with the odd vole or mouse or bird.

They're lovely my new neighbours, prehaps it would be a good move to invite them to the next barbeque.......yikes!!!

Puff pant an all that.

Woohooooooo!!!

Just been to the gym and I can still do it.

Smiley.

Yes or No update.

Awwww bless you to bits Emmie, thank you for that lovely comment. A great big thanks to everyone else who posted a comment on the 'oh poo' blog its certainly given me an extra bit of ooomph to fight my corner.

However my luck might just be in as it now looks as though one uni is prepared to consider me and I've been given an unconditional place on the access course so I'm very happy for now.

Meanwhile I was packing bags in Sainsbury's for our church's homeless project on Monday and I loved it, man can I yak on and on. I'll have to learn to curb that pronto or I'll never get all the beds made and the tea given out on the ward. Its back to the kitchen job tomorrow for a week and a half because my sister is having yet another holiday. I should stay out of trouble there although my boss, who is just a bit of a kid says I eat most of the profit and dole out kingsize portions so he has to increase his order when I'm due to do a stint. And he has to shout cos I'm a wee bit deaf....why the hell do I keep getting called back then I ask myself.

Love to all.

Water sports

The damn cat fell in the pond today.

When she went in...

He came out.....So I kissed him an I'm off for an early nite :D

Oh POO!!!!!

I've just got back from my one to one interview at college and..........

I might be too old to do nursing, I'm gutted. I told her I put my age on my application form and they then invited me on that admissions evening, they talked at me and gave me a one to one interview....huh!! She said they don't look at the age and she thought I was a lot younger than I am. I was momentarily very happy with that bit but I sooooo want to do nursing its been a passion since I was 15, I just noticed thats my age now back to front.

My next step is to email the two uni's to enquire whether they'll take me and if they won't its back to the drawing board. I've calmed down now, there's probably no end of other things I can do so I'm not getting worked up about it. I'm fitter, more confident and a heck of a lot cleverer than I was when I was 15 and I want to work until I'm at least 70, d'you hear that....I WANT TO WORK.

Rant over, our Mike has just suggested I do something gardeny and I have to say I am a bit green fingered and I have room for a wee garden centre and coffee shop here, so if its a no I have something else up my sleeve. nerrrrr.

Been to the beach

Plans to go to the beach today were delayed due to son being sent to casualty from work in a taxi with a dodgy hand. Naturally I received a text and was there before him. We've been nodding and aahhing for a while now as Mike has mumbled on about his hand but give him his due an x-ray today said it had been broken but had practically healed, just some tendon and ligament damage left. I ran him back to work at his request and we headed for the beach, I'd like to record here I did feel sorry for him.

An amazing thing happened, I took a photo of what I thought was a crab mating with a shell.

Then when I got home and downloaded the pics to my amazement the shell now had legs.

And........we were being watched.

Its been an exciting day in my world but the very best bit was yet to come.

I squiddled about in this mud for ages, its a primeval thing.

Oh yeah and finally I took a pic of John and when downloaded there was a weeny Loch Ness monster in it.

What d'ya mean you can't see it!

I think I've surpassed many in pics of the natural world...what a day!

Great Strides 2

I've been on a little cloud since we did the walk yesterday and I don't really want to get off it, so I wont......yet.

Where do I start about the positives of yesterday, it was wonderfully relaxed and scenic, beautiful weather and fun. I got to see my very lovely friend and her family and most of all it was a fitting tribute to Chris. All in all a very successful venture.




I particularly enjoyed the rolling down the hill challenge with my mate who tells well cheesy jokes ;-) and Joey made me giggle when he hared across to us shouting 'Sue I'm going to run down it, bless him.



We did the red hair thing so that's off my list.



It was magic to have John and Mike on a venture with me because they don't usually do public, that was special.


The messages I've had from people over the last few days and the amazing support we've had in sponsorship has helped us get through this last week with a smile on our faces and thats priceless that is.


Thank you all from the bottom of my heart.

Great Strides - Part 1

Brilliantley positive fab day this was. Part 2 tomorrow.

Now you see it.........

I've worked like a trojan today so its worth a blog.

Hedge before.

Secret garden bit was hard going.

Hedge after.

Note where the grass is non existent, thats where the garage fell down and we (I) only just got round to clearing the debris.

Having dipped in the toolbox I'll sleep like a bick tonight, thats for sure.

Quick Blog

Just doing a quicky so I know what I've been up to recently. On Saturday night I went to a show in Liverpool, it was Dancing on Ice and it was at the Echo Arena. My friend Eve had bought the tickets as a treat for me and we also ate out which was scrummy. I did go into the gents instead of the ladies and there were two men mid pee, my mind said go out quick but my body froze and my eyes stared why does that happen sometimes....yikes!!! They were scousers though so they just laughed and cracked a couple of dodgy jokes.

Liver Building where I used to work.

Me & Echo Arena

Yesterday was spent in the garden.

Me on couch

John cooking

I was at the hoz yesterday with the damn ear and they said I'm deaf in it and they can't fix it, and they can't get rid of the noise in it. Ah well, at least I have one good one. I have to go in one of them horrid MRI things which mortifies me a bit being a claustraphobic person, last time I pressed the button to come out about 10 times. I'll add it to my list 'get over claustraphobia' that should work.

Today the cf nurse came, we nattered loads and chose a drawing of Chris's to be framed and put on the wall at the unit, I think that's really quite nice along with the Great Strides and a yellow ribbon for his willow.

Massive thanks to all who have sponsored us for the walk and helped us to focus on a positive, you're stars all of you.

I'm off into the garden again now, I'm loving this weather and outdoor eating.

So far so good here!

Love to all.

Sam

Sadly another precious life was lost on Friday, like far too many Sam's call just didnt come in time.

Breathe easy now Sam.

If you haven't already signed up to the donor register please consider doing it now.

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A good week.

In the grand scheme of things I've had a really good week this week so I've decided to do a mixed blog on my normal blog, because its positive.

Firstly I worked most of last week and thats always a good thing for me (positive) what wasn't brill about the situation was I was covering for my sister who I love to bits, she was as ill as anything and got herself a bit down as you do when feeling under the weather. However she's a lot better now (positive).

I was off on Wednesday because I had a dentist appointment and I was going to see a fellow cf parent who lost her son 6 weeks after we said goodbye to Chris. I haven't been to a dentist for a very loooooong time and was amazed that I only needed one filling.....ONE!!!! (positive). After that I muddled my way to yet another part of the Wirral that was a bit alien to me, but I found it easy peasy (positive). Me and M had a really good day, we laughed loads, cried a bit and scoffed many batches followed by delicious home made Coffee cake (positive).

I've been asked a number of times now (twice this week) isn't it hard to keep up contact with world cf? Absolutley not! In fact its the opposite, I've made many good friends through cf (positive) and they are just that, the fact that we first met through cf doesn't matter a jot, I love people and the more I can meet in this life the better. I'm made up when someone who's been poorly gets better and I'm delighted when someone on the transplant list gets their call because I 100% beleive that transplant is the way to go until they find a cure or a treatment that prolongs life. I have empathy when someone loses a loved one and feel blessed that I can go visit them and come away feeling we have helped each other. (positive).

Despite losing my lovely son I do still love life and I have lots to look forward to.